This would be funny if tonight and the things I’ve heard and seen this week didn’t make it so blatantly obvious.

It took so long for me to settle into a group of friends that I felt at home with, that maybe I just chose this one out of desperation.

I don’t have one person I can tell everything to in confidence. I don’t have that one “long lost sister” or “big brother” that I had in all of my other groups of friends. I feel like I’m just there.

The past 24 hours I’ve been anxiety stricken over what happened last night and no one that I thought I was close to even bothered to check in or even entertain the thought that it might have had a bad effect on me. Instead, Justin comes out of the blue to console me.

I think I need to rethink a lot of the people in my life.